Chapter 32
It’s time of year again… November 3rd… It’s my Birthday!!! I am now 32 and let me tell yall 31 was tough!! I feel like I was tested a lot this year with tons of challenges and have had to figure out how to keep going with life despite what was being thrown at me. I honestly hit a breaking point where I was going to quit blogging altogether and take a break, because things weren’t going the way how I wanted them to go personally. We all beat ourselves up over tiny things that really don’t matter to anyone else usually and most of the time people have NO idea that there is even a problem. Obviously I am still here and I decided to keep creating. It’s always good to have a pep talk from time to with a friend, who can keep you on track. I honestly don’t know where I would be if I wasn’t creating and blogging, so there was no reason for me to really quit in the first place. I always tell myself if I have helped to change one person’s life, then my job here is all worth it. Thank You to everyone who has sent me amazing positive messages, because putting your self out there is hard!!! Some times I honestly feel like no one is even listening and that I am not even reaching anyone. I have learned this year, that people are paying attention, they often just don’t tell me (Oh well… moving on I guess haha). I have had to learn to keep going even if people aren’t engaging with my content. Sounds crazy when you are building a personal brand and a platform on social media, but that’s how it is some times. Also I have learned how lonely the journey can be and that everyone isn’t really interested or willing to help. I knew these things, but really felt them like I never did before this year.
Besides my life of sharing on social media, personally I have made a conscious effort to be better to my body and to myself. Self growth and self love has been my top priority!! This is a continuous life journey that has been years in the making. If i’m not growing or learning about how to make my life better for me, then I don’t know what the point is. I have found that I sit and just listen to people and say nothing at all. Not to say that I have nothing to share, but some times it’s just good to sit and listen. Try it and see if you start paying attention and listen to people differently. Also, I am a person that seeks conversations that have substance and don’t feel fake, so I will see myself out of all situations where the energy is not authentic. Speaking of energy I feel like I have manifested tons of positivity in to my life, especially when I need it the most. I have made tons of new friends in the creative space and hope to continue to connect with amazing people!!!!
31 had a lot of great ups and experiences which out weigh the bad, so over all I cannot complain. I have also been experimenting with my creativity more and want to find more ways to share all of what I love in my life. This has honestly been difficult for me, but I am learning more and more to not care about if people think that my path is dumb or “taking to long to figure out”. We all have something amazing to bring to the world and I know with in myself that there is a lot that I have been holding back on. It’s not on purpose, I have just been trying to figure out how to fit things in to my life that I once did before that I am not doing currently. When it comes together it will be amazing!!! It’s all a process…. Ugh!!!
By the way… I am starting a new job, so it will definitely be a big part of this new year and life journey!! I am excited!!!
I have learned to not fit in and to just stand out in my own glory. I honestly don’t fit in with many people and have always felt like an outsider in a lot of groups in my life. As I get older I have been more ok with beating my own tune on my own drum and I am still growing in to being ok with that. I tend to not lean on what is popular, go with my gut and do things that I like. If the crowd is going Left… I’m going Right. Yall… it’s hard!!! But, for myself and my personal growth I know that it is necessary. No one’s journey is alike and I wish more people would dig deep and not follow the crowd, because that “thing” is popular and everyone is doing it. I say “who cares”!!! “Be you and Do you”!! “Find your Glam”!!! That is exactly what my style and life style is all about!! Glitz and Glam By Tiff wouldn’t be here today with out that philosophy.
As I step in to a new year of life, I want to continue to keep pushing myself to bring back those things that once brought me joy and re realize why I need them, also continue on with better health and continue learning and growing. We all have so much to give and to gain. Here’s to another year older and another year wiser!!!! Let’s go year 32!!!!