Chapter 34 - What I've Learned About Myself This Year
Today is November 3rd 2021 and it is my BIRTHDAY!!! I am 34!!!
As we all know… it has definitely been an interesting couple of years (don’t worry I’m not going to go in to it). It has just been interesting. I will leave it at that.
In the past year so much has changed in my life and I have learned to trust myself, lean more in to my creative abilities and just go with my gut. I decided not to go back to my job and… I officially started working FREELANCE Full Time this year!!! It was one of the best decisions I have ever made in life. Was it scary?? Ummm YES, but am I happy… also YES!!! I am so happy to be moving into the direction of taking my life by the horns and going for whatever I want. Are things perfect?? Absolutely NOT. I am figuring everything out along the way, but I can say that I have been opening myself up to even more opportunities and I am grateful for the ability to do so. If you are trying to figure out how to get started with doing anything in life, I say don’t wait!! Just go for it and things will fall in to the places that they need to along the way.
Another thing that I learned this year, is that I don’t need people as much as I think that I do. I’m sure that sounds crazy, so let me explain. Often people come in to your life at different times through out your journey and sometimes some of those people just don’t belong and don’t deserve to continue on with your journey. These are all things that we personally have to figure out for ourselves. Some people drag us down, and that is something that I felt earlier in the year. I personally love helping others, which is one of my gifts. I am a huge giver, but it also comes at a price, because often I myself would get lost in the shuffle and wouldn’t give enough to myself. I decided after a really hurtful few situations this year that I was done completely with giving so much of myself and my time to people. I decided to stop involving myself so much in community and give more to ME. I have been soooo selfless in my life time and I have felt very taken advantage of in the past few years. This year was the last straw for me and I broke, decided to go more inward and work on being me again.
With me working on more of me this year I got back heavily in to working out again, staying consistent and starting taking dance again after so many years of being away. Dance has been an artform for me that is another way for me to express myself with out speaking, just like fashion. It’s something I just do and I don’t feel like it needs to be explained. It’s my therapy, it’s time for myself that I take a little piece of my day a few times a week to do that feels good. It keeps me moving. I think that we all should find those little things and time for ourselves to really dive in deep to the things that we love. Self Care has always been an important part of my life and as I continue to dive into myself I have began to realize and see so many things from a different lens than I ever did before. It feels amazing!!
I am very happy with the decision for myself to take a step back and work on things and work with people in a more intentional way. This is still a work in progress, but I am going in a direction that makes the most sense to me and not allowing the opinions of others to get in the way. For a while I did allow people to get in to my head by the things that they said and I had to realize that I have the power to move how I want to and no one can stop me… EVER!! This is the new energy that I have been moving in and will continue to move in from now on. Watch out world!!!
As I move in to a new year of life I want to continue to learn more about me and continue to break in to and try new things that I have never done before. Also I want to continue to challenge myself in the things that I already know how to do and continue to learn and grow in those aspects as well. I want to never stop learning. We all have so much to gain in this life. I hope that you who are reading this continue to grow and learn along the way as well. Be yourself!! Do YOU!! don’t be afraid to embrace all parts of yourself.
Chapter 34 here we go!!! Let’s DO THIS!!!